I've mentioned before that my goal is Relentless Forward Progress. At this point, I feel that I'm still working up to that. I haven't quite achieved the Relentless part, and much of the time I'm still checking that I am indeed still moving forward. However, there is Progress being made. In the midst of all of this past week's RattleDown! (this is my new call out for snakes on the trail....like...on your left....or, bike up :)) and my F****** Herceptin Treatment last Wednesday, I forgot to actually give an update. No, it was not the harpists fault this time. I was simply in a grumpy mood, despite having a delightful trail run that morning.
Areas of Progress over the past 10 days have included, but possibly not been limited to:
1. I had an actual conversation with my oncologist. We, of course, did not agree . I asked if i could have some EPO or some extra blood, or something to take care of this low RBC count once in for all, and all he said was...."don't even mention that here".....followed by, "Lance did the Tour with a RBC count of 10". Really? I need to look that up. I find that hard to believe. Anyway, I thought it was odd that he mentioned Lance...I had not brought him up. I just wanted the EPO. He told me my problem was not critical. I did throw it out there that it could potentially become critical at mile 40 of the 50 mile race i had planned, and then he attempted, successfully, to sidetrack me with something about serum IRON. I fell for it. They tested my Iron Saturation or something, and it turns out it's fine, so I DO NOT get the special Iron treatment i was hoping for. My problem is just not bad enough. My RBCs did go up slightly this round, but i've been taking iron now for 3 weeks, and eating about 2x as much Red meat as i used to. I think this part might have actually caused a slight setback due to the fact that this red meat plan convinced my mind on one or two occasions, to eat chicken fried steak, because it would be good for me.
2. I faced my 3rd motivation test and passed, pretty much with flying colors. I'll be brief.
The first test, i already mentioned. It was when my alarm did not go off and i still made it out to run 8 miles alone. Second test: Run on Treadmill 5 miles when i DID NOT feel like it after a long day at work. Third Test: Run 11 miles on trail ALL BY MYSELF on tired legs, partly in the dark, and alongside multiple snakes, the day after i had chosen to ride my bike for 3.5 hours of hills.
3. I actually reached out to the medical profession for assistance with my severely tight chest/arm problem....and it's helping. I've attended two sessions of Active Release Technique treatments and it pretty much hurts like HELL, but it is helping. I'm also getting treatment for the shin splints that I've been avoiding for about 4 years as well, and it is helping with that too :).
4. I've had a bit of time to think about my surgical/reconstruction options and have actually had one conversation with my husband about it. Zero decisions made, but at least not backward motion.
5. I had fun with my family at a county fair despite the heat outside.
6. And IT RAINED here last weekend!! it was beautiful!